OF GOD – Humble my heart Oh Lord, that I may know you as
Peter knew you. Help me to see myself as I truly am.
“Who do you say that I am?” (Mt
Have you ever thought how odd this
question sounds? In some ways it would have been more
reasonable for Jesus to ask, what do people think of my teaching, or
what do you think of these miracles I just performed? Yet He
doesn’t focus on what He was doing, but rather He wanted the apostles
to see how what He was doing was pointing to who He is. Perhaps
it was reasonable that others might think of him as Elijah
or another prophet, after all they too performed miracles and
commanded the weather, but to those who knew Him intimately, was He
not something greater? He taught not by citing Moses and the
Law as authority, but by His own authority. (You have heard it
say…but I say). His miracles went far beyond any prophet.
But perhaps most telling was His forgiveness of sin. Only
God could do that. For the apostles this had to be unsettling.
They had to be asking themselves; who is this guy? So,
Jesus asks aloud the very question they are asking themselves.
And it is Peter who was inspired to come to the logical, yet
hardly believable answer; You are the Christ, the Son of the Living
We too face the same question.
Jesus is the only religious founder that compels us to make a
choice. Either you are with me or against me, he says in
Matthews gospel. If Jesus is who He says He is, then He must
become the center of my life. If He is not, then at best He is
a liar and at worse a raving lunatic. While we must have faith
to believe, we also have the knowledge of Jesus death and
resurrection. What made Peter’s response so awesome was that leap of
faith He made without the benefit of knowing the whole story.
When I do accept Jesus as Lord, and
make Him the center of my life, then I must ask Jesus the same
question; Lord, who do you say I am? Allow Him to show you all
of those nooks and crannies of your self where your imperfections
lie. Ask for his help in uncovering them and getting rid of
them so that you might be able to say as Paul that it is no longer I
who live but Christ in me.
Oh Jesus, you present the
question to me that you asked your apostles. “Who do
you say I am?” A question that makes me uneasy because of what
it might mean to declare you as the Son of God. I don’t want to
give up my comforts, my wealth, my power, my control of my life.
Yet that is what it would mean if I do declare you as Lord.
Help me to realize that if I do put you at the center of my
life, then all of the rest will take care of itself. You told
us as much when you said “Seek first the kingdom of God
and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you
besides.” (Mt 6:33)
Shine your light within my heart,
Dear Lord, to show me my faults, my imperfections, those things that
keep me from holding you as Lord of my life. Purge those things
from me so that I may know you more clearly, love you more dearly,
follow you more nearly, day by day.