These thoughts I pen not as
an official report but as a personal reflection on the death of this
accused prisoner. As a physician, I have seen many men in death.
Many of them condemned and many of them condemned to die in
horrible ways. What puzzles me about this Jesus and his death is why?
Why was it that this self-proclaimed rabbi from the Galilee had to
meet such an end?
I realize that Passover
time often makes all of Jerusalem a hot bed of political intrigue.
Our Roman Procurator is not a man to be pushed by the eccentricities
of our Jewish politics. But, why? Oh yes, I know he had wild ideas
about the reign of God and there are those who claim that he thought
himself to be the messiah. I realize that these things could cause a
great deal of tension among our leaders. But it still doesn't answer
This man's message as I
myself heard it as he preached it in the temple a few short days ago
was no threat to the state or to the practice of the Torah. When he
was questioned about even paying tribute to Rome, he told those who
questioned him to pay the tax and he also told them to give honor to
God. What is wrong with that?
I think in the end it must
be that our leaders feared not simply the message but the man
himself. I must admit that as I heard him speak, my own heart was
moved. His message was stirring but there was more. Yes, it was
the man himself. I cannot put it easily into words. There
was something about him that goes beyond anything he said. Being in
his presence one felt inspired even somehow close to God. Maybe this
is what our leaders feared. Maybe they too thought that he was
the messiah. Certainly, or at least so it's rumored, many of
the Sanhedrin wondered if indeed he may be the one sent by God.
Imagine if indeed this
Jesus was sent by God? We have not always been kind to his
messengers in the past. Many we have rejected and only later
found it in our hearts to repent for turning against their message.
What if this man was sent by God? What have we done? We can
only pray I suppose that he was deranged and a nuisance. But
even this, I do not believe deserved the death he received.
What if he was sent to us
from God? What can we do? Like the scorn we showed the
prophets of old, I suppose we should seek God's forgiveness.
But what if this Jesus was indeed not just a prophet but the messiah,
God's chosen one and we did this to him. What then can we do?
Is there any hope for such a sin as this? God has
forgiven us in the past. But what can we do?
I suppose all we can do is
pray. Prayer is our only hope. We must pray for mercy. We must pray
that his forgiveness is great and his love truly everlasting.
Yes, we must pray.
However, we must also
watch. For if this Jesus is the messiah, then all may not be as
it seems to be at the present moment. This story of Jesus the
Nazarene may not be over. In fact, it may only have just begun.